Standing on My Brother's ShouldersA memoir of a powerful and haunting journey through childhood grief and suicide to find a life of meaning and peace. A suicide losssurvivor tells her story. Tara Lal's childhood was battered by her father's mental illness and by her mother's death when she was thirteen. Caught up in grief and despair, she developed a deep, caring bond with her charismatic and kind older brother Adam, though he struggled silently with growing anxiety and depression.